I Tell Myself

And the days pass by so slowly,
yet so quickly.

I can hardly breath.

Thankful when I feel,
Your lips press mine.

Your breath fills my lungs.

I can't find the defrost button,
For my mind.

My eyes fog over and I pull off the road,
And roll down my windows.

I'm stuck here with a cracked windshield,
And a shattered will.

I get out and start walking,
The sun will come out in a minute.

I tell myself.

All That Matters

Fucking shit starts again,
I can't take it anymore!
I don't care, I don't,
and then I do.
Shit.

It has to stop,
and it will,
just not soon enough.
But, I still smile.

And it's real.

I still laugh.
I still cry,
and I still love it.

That's all that matters.